Strained is a good way to put it... - Cody

life sucks... lets not be hippies here people, in real life, the one we all live in, it sucks... it's not fare at all... my dad told me yesterday "lifes a bitch, then you die" and it's true... a friend of mine, one i have told that i love, is trying to convince me that i should just give up on her... first she tells me that i'm "the only friend she has", then she says she hates me. i ask "why", and she says "because you wont give up"... then i say "fine! i give up" then she says she says i'll be happy this way, but i feel like shit... then she says she feels like shit... which makes me feel... shittier... Then, i try and be 'just a friend' and she asks me why i dont care, BUT I DO CARE DANG IT!!! and i tell her i do, and she go's off and tells me she wants me to stop caring... god... freaking... dammit... you cant have it both ways...

ok there's my rant... since a good handful of you either have a vagina, or has better luck with those who have vagina's than i do... please... help me out... i really do love this person... she lives in VA and i want to fly there to see her like... the day i have enough cash... please... someone tell me what to do...